How To Do Things With Men (#1)
How to do things with men: steal their documents, suppress their analysis, follow them around, follow them home
being taken home involves metal and steel and fluorescent light, how involved can you get
being taken alive
Later, tea with the emperor, countless visitations, haunted moors of men who stare back from behind car windows and you wonder what's there
A beautiful neck near a beautiful collar
not much face to go around
a picaresque
to see into the future / steal those documents / let men be in their natural habitat and watch them closely twitching in their sleep
or escaping from one thought to another, words
mean so much, just barely enough
a whole history of them in every man, each man walking the walk
later and excited and a little drunk
staying up to late to write a note about the noise in the garden—don't
stop to listen to analyze the radio going
I want to know what love is or You’re so fucking special
the part of the house where the nights are a little longer, a little darker, a little more meaningful in context
with damp hair covering everything
I can’t conceive of even trying to go forth. This
is the closest you’ll ever get to following him home. It’s called dusk.
Sitting across from him in his kitchen
wincing or cricking your neck or jackknifing for men, making men a path down which you can lead them and then leave them there full of suppressed doubt, a switchback
in flattering sunlight
Take off their clothes and think only of the history of clothes, of bandages and modesty
and how it’s too hot
how you can’t wait
everyday a taller building to scale, another stranger to meet
Lead men home and sit them in the wicker chairs reserved for guests and give them tea and listen to them explain the relationship between sickness and politics
without thinking
and the curtains are nice, the way they let in just enough light to erase just enough detail
Listen to what men say when they talk about witnesses and silences and work
Listen to how men work, every sly grin as if opening an oil barrel from the inside
With men’s hands you can do whatever’s worthwhile in the time allotted
before the sun goes down on men, none left
to pick, pass by or pack away for later, another doorway to pass through,
another risk to run
Give men names but don’t say them aloud / wait there forever trying to keep it to a dull roar, a social headache, the public reduced to a hot white point
when you’re here, dear
Do something instead of just smiling (following his gaze around the room)
politely in polite company Keep pushing
until the flesh of what he says turns white
Nicholas Grider is an artist and writer who divides his time between Milwaukee and Los Angeles.
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